Hurry Up And Wait

Soo.. On the Respiratory School soap opera I'm in, I'm still WAITING.

Grades so far in the "Must Make a B Classes" looks promising. I made an A in one of them, so that's a bonus.

I was all content with going to School2, because I just knew that I wouldn't even be a top applicant at School1.

Then I got the letter from School1, "Good news! You're a top applicant.." Well, CRAP! This wasn't supposed to happen.

Now, I really want to go to School1. I went to the informational meeting and I was even more sold on the idea. I still don't know if I'm accepted, or if I'm an alternate. If I'm an alternate, I think my head will explode. I don't need any more rifts in this equation. I'm a cut and dry, yes or no person. Am I in or not? I'm an alternate? Well, when can you tell me if I'm IN OR NOT?!?!

It hasn't come to that, but I'm prepared if it does. If I'm an alternate at School1 and it will take weeks to know if I'm finally in or not, I will go through the motions with School2, even though I'd hate to do that. I don't like leading them on. And I don't want to tell them what's going on either. This is stressful. I'll stop the rambling now because it's starting to not make sense. No one reads this anyway.... soo..

I should get my next letter from School1 by the 16th.

Just gotta keep waiting.